Who My Friends Are

I feel just greaaat.

I trusted you as one of my closest friends. You were the first person I would call if anything happened, and I wasn't afraid to tell you how I felt. You know I would never stop you from being happy, but what do I do when I feel like you are taking me for granted?
I knew him well enough for me to not be surprised, but I was shocked beyond belief that you were mentioning it to me to see my reaction. To see if I would approve. But to approve of what?...you already did it. After that happens, what is there to approve of...
It's not that I still think about it, and most definitely not because I want to prevent happiness. If I could switch off what I'm feeling right now, I would; I feel selfish but I really can't help it. I have to consider my own feelings when no one else seems to.

You worry about me feeling awkward. Feeling awkward is not so bad, but did you consider hurt? I know you can't help your feelings sometimes; it's natural. I told you what you do is your own choice. I am mutually exclusive in this situation as it's a matter of your own decisions. Whether it be ignorance or whatever, I don't know if you can see past what I say to you. I don't know if you read that uncomfortable look I'm sure I had on my face when I said, "That's okay." Or if you did, would you even care to consider my words.

Friends are important to me, so I'm trying to let it go. I'm really trying hard to not think about it; so I only ask of one favour.. that is to stop taunting me back into this. When I don't reply you, or reply with "oh," that's telling you somethin'. Don't ignore my hints because I don't have the heart to tell you straight up.